We live an hour apart. I went to visit him last night. I wanted him to come tonight. He went to a Christmas party instead. Since I don't really want to complain to anyone about him, I'm complaining to no one through this blog.
He wouldn't come to Thanksgiving with me and my family.
It's so hard.
I love him, but I don't get as much back from him as I give to him.
I just want to be loved back. Take some risks. Have some faith. Love and be loved. Tomorrow will come, why not live for today a little?
But I can't say that, because he doesn't want to be pushed. And yet I still push him. I can't help it. Why not get married asap and just start our lives together? It wouldn't be rushing anything; we've been dating over a year. With a six month engagement nobody could say that's rushing things. I'm sick of waiting. I'm so frustrated. It's so hard loving someone so much and not getting it in return. It's been a month, and nothing's changed with him. And I just fall for him more every day.
....except today it's a little hard to say that, because I'm upset. :(
