We decided to "take a break."
For a week.
I was surprised when he suggested it.
It kind of hurt. But it was the only thing that made sense.
I'm so confused.
The first day hasn't been a ton of help in helping me know what to do.
I feel free. But I always want to just call him and say, "Let's just get married." I don't want to give up on it yet. I don't want to lose the friendship. I kept thinking today about the future, and he was always in it. Reading aloud in the car to him. Celebrating Christmas. Giving him a birthday present. I don't know. I don't know what I want. I don't know if I love him enough to marry him. I don't know I don't know I don't know.
Time to escape to Neverland...
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